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Gosh, it has been a long roller coaster ride of a day! Back to back meetings from the minute, I walked in this morning, I feel like I've been fire fighting all day with no respite and what feels like no support, this is wearing!

I've survived on a bag of nuts and coffee, no wonder I'm so wired....

I was sitting at my computer thinking about the best way to describe this feeling of too many eggs in one basket and I couldn't help but hum the rhyme of Humpty Dumpty.

'Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty...

I left the meeting feeling like things were finally going to work! I was excited and motivated to get stuck into this project. I knew it was an important one and I felt honoured that I had been chosen to lead it ...

The entire brief was perfect for me I knew I had the skills to...

And there it was ... 

Another meeting where I was told my team wasn't performing and still not delivering to the right level. I was getting more and more frustrated by the constant uncalled for criticism and all I wanted to do was offer some 'free advice' ... it was starting to feel...

Over the last few days, I've talked about what it feels like to be in a difficult situation at work, where the culture can be described as 'toxic'. Where it is extremely difficult to get things done. Where every meeting is challenging and your self-confidence is knocked. Feeling tired and worn...

A Sunday well spent brings a week of content ... we've all heard that one!

As I make my way to the office I am contemplating another week, another day, another opportunity to make a difference, another project to deliver and another positive affirmation ... start the way you wish...

I was on top of the world!

After all the time spent planning our strategy for the project we were making progress. We had our budget signed off and agreed by senior management. The team was well balanced and we were ready to roll! I was feeling on top of the world! 

Nothing more...

I couldn't believe what I was hearing!

Those words ... 

YOU'RE FIRED

... rang in my ears ... a big ben style bell was going off in my head.

Surely I had misheard ...

... this is not the Apprentice!

I had to bite my tongue. I was in a room full of senior managers who seem to be immune to...

How do I do this? is the question I was asking myself while I looked into my eyes in the mirror of the ladies. I had escaped for a few minutes just to regain my composure, to take a deep breath and gather my thoughts.

I had just left another meeting and was feeling very confused.

But I've done...

A friend was telling me about her recent holiday in Canada and how falling in very soft and deep snow with a snowboard attached (while pretending to be a werewolf running in the trees) was amusing for her in this instance, getting up and back on track was simply exhausting. 

Patting...

Yes, I had just been called into another meeting where I knew my integrity would be questioned. My team were working at maximum capacity, yes we were facing a few challenges but it was all under control.

Why is this so difficult to understand! We've been through this once already this week...

It was Monday morning, I remember heading to the office, sitting in the traffic, I could feel my anxiety starting to build, I was tapping my hands on the steering wheel waiting for the lights to change.

I was torn. 

Desperate to prove myself and bring all the best I had to offer to my role,...